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November 30th, 2009


05:01 pm - Celtic Woman CD
I will be just a second, I just wanted to say that if you get a chance get the Celtic Woman Christmas CD... I got it for me and my friend Hill to listen to on our trip b/c we like them... I love their voices and LOVE to sing along with them... but this one beats the others... I listened to it on my way here this morning and I believe that is what angels in Heaven are going to sound like. especially when they do the old carols with the choir with them. It is beautiful!! I am almost speechless at some points. I can't wait to learn every song on it and sing it to my hearts content... music like that just makes me happy and gives me chill bumps if I ever thought of being a famous singer, I would want to be like them... I have a new favorite CD! Just thought I would "advertise" for a min!! LOL
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August 12th, 2009


12:24 pm - Writer's Block: Proven by Science

Do you believe everything has a scientific explanation?

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No, and if they did the world would be a lot less interesting...

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June 18th, 2009


12:39 pm - Writer's Block: I Can Relate

What fictional character do you most identify with?


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Cimorine (Spelling??) from the Enchanted Forest Chronicles

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May 1st, 2009


11:29 am - Hiking, Friends, Free Tickets!, and other everyday things...

Well, I went hiking with my friend Hillary in Oak Ridge last weekend. It was great (pics posted on myspace), we went to two different parks, hiked several trails, found a couple of waterfalls, and took over 200 pics between the both of us. We went mainly to take cute pics b/c we both like to do that. I enjoyed spending the day with her, talking about nothing and everything. We haven't had time like that together in a while. It was worth the two hour drive up there and home later. I am just worried that she is too attached to this current casual boyfriend b/c they both knew from the begining that he would be graduating this May and leaving for another state to be gone forever probably, but both decided to try it anyway knowing it was useless, trying not to get attached.. well he is already cutting ties ready to go, but she is more attached to him than she meant to be b/c she is getting really depressed that he is leaving. But the main problem is she is missing her pills!! she missed two while I was up there!! in a row! I am so afraid she is gonna end up pregnant with his kid and he is gonna be gone for good before she can even let him know about it. and she will be stuck with a child to raise on her own just when she is ready to make all these plans for school next semister. I am kinda worried, but I hope it's all for nothing. But overall the weekend was great and I had a great time, we hope to do it again sometime this summer. I would give tons more detail, but at the moment I am at work and  can't seem to type correctly today and I keep having to fix stuff which wastes time. so on to the next thing
    
Another friend of mine is in the process of moving b/c she will be getting married this summer and they finally found a house! Yay for them!! but I get to go help her paint some this weekend, which I don't mind b/c I need the experiance b/c we plan to remove wallpaper and paint my kitchen this summer... I am really excited for her b/c she graduates college in a few weeks too so we should be able to spend more time together. 
   
  And Yet another friend of mine got officially engaged a few weeks ago, but her wedding won't be for another year or so. But I am gonna be Maid of Honor in that wedding, we have already been looking at planners and such. I am so excited for her b/c I really think her and the guy (who is an old school friend of both of ours) will work out great. They are gonna start looking for a house as soon as she graduates in May also this year... (I have 3 graduations, a wedding and my b-day this month and possibly 6-flags) 
  
We got Free Tickets to 6-flags which I am really excited about!! we plan to go around my b-day (end of May) if the other couple can go on that date too (the same said couple who just got engaged) We are just wanting another couple to go with to take pics with, plus we get along good with them and it should be a great time. I hope it all works out the way we want b/c even if they can't go we are still going. We also got free tickets to a concert in June, not one of our favorite people, but we have heard of him and they were given to us, so we can't complain, still unsure if we will go or not, we may give the tickets away. we'll see.

The library is a disaster from the construction and we have been closed for two weeks for a move, I am so tired of moving things, and dodging workers and the dirt and mess everywhere! how can we do everyday functions if our computers aren't even set up or the outlets are not even working? Plus we are supposed to Re-open in a few days.... how is this gonna happen if we don't even have computers to checkout on working? or even steps that lead into the building set up?? Everything is a mess and has been, hence why I haven't been on here much in the last few weeks, no working computers there...

I am over halfway through my new journal and will probably have it done in another 2 weeks if I keep up at the pace I am going. I have had alot of stuff to think about and write about lately with the trips, friends, our friend dying, and normal everyday things not to mention some of the weird dreams I have been having. The cats are all fine and being holy terrors! lol which is usual for them so no big deals there. I am kinda curious as to how Tank will respond to us being gone for days at a time b/c our trip to St. Augustine, FL is in less than 2 months. and he has never been left alone overnight. Daddy will stop in to check on them and make sure they have food and stuff, but I wonder if he will be depressed? he is REALLY attached to me... but he will have the other boys there for company so it's not like he is completely alone. So we will have to see.

UM, I think this is mostly it for now... if my head wasn't hurting so bad, I  might add more details about the trip about how I got a surprising insight into how different mine and Hill's personallities are.. just from an incident that happened on a trail. but more explainations if I get time later...lets just say it didn't put her ina good light b/c She KNEW the prize was right infront of her. all she had to do was get through one hard part, but yet she gave up and still wouldn't do it. Whereas I didn't know where the prize was, but I pushed myself and even at the point where I wanted to give up. I pushed a little farther b/c on faith I believed i was close and it was there.. I made it to the top of the bluff and seen the great view (got the prize), but she wouldn't do it even when she knew it was right there! It was kinda an eye opening experiance b/c it all of a sudden related to everything she does in her life to me... It was a really strange moment and I thought about it all weekend... but oh well I am at work and must go... I will be glad when our computers are fixed and I can be on more often... lol later!

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April 24th, 2009


11:09 am - Suicide tears families apart...

Well, I really didn't think this would bother me that much, but I can't stop thinking about it. I have a wonderful weekend planned with friends, but this is weighing very heavily on my mind and if I think too long on it I can't help but cry for his family. One of my and toby's old school friends, and toby's current coworker, committed suicide Tues night... hung himself... He left behind a wife he had been with nearly 10 years, 3 kids, a son who is old enough to be scarred by this, and two girls who are so young they won't even remember their great dad... He was a great, GREAT person! no one seen this coming. It is Terrible and sad and tradgic. It really bothers me, b/c if he who seemingly had everything, degrees, great job, great wife, family, active in his church, could do this, then ANY one could... He was fighting an alchol addiction that no one but the closest family knew he had. No one even knew he was having problems. He and his wife had just finished building this new house for their family, everything seemed so normal, but then last week his wife left him b/c of the alchol abuse and it was just too much for him apparently. I just can't believe he is gone... I seen him about two weeks ago in the library laughing, holding his youngest daughter. It is so terrible, b/c he was always one to laugh with you, smile and say hello to anyone. No one even guessed what was coming. When Toby told me he had died, I immediately thought a terrible car crash b/c he was our age! but no, never suicide... he was too good for that... he always has been. what could have been so bad to push him that far? he had been in rehab and everything, he was trying to beat this problem according to family, but how could it have lead to this? it's just so shocking and as much as I try to act as though it hasn't happened, it pops back into my head at the least expected times... that he is gone... I am never gonna see him come in with his kids and talk about some crazy thing toby did to him at work that week. It's just such a shock to everyone, and I feel so terrible for his family. I just needed to get some of this out, it is just really bothering me that someone as good as him would do this. It really makes you think about life....
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April 15th, 2009


11:51 am - All hopefull wishes... but just wishes apparently... (warning possibly TMI)
Is it bad to be so depressed that I actually started this morning?? I was a day late, and the only thing that flitted through my head all day yest was that if I still hadn't started by this morning I was gonna take an early test. I had no reason to suspect that I might be. I hadn't missed a pill, nothing had been strange, I was only one day late, which can be practicly normal. But i kept thinking what if all day yest. I would probably be appropriately shocked, and have no clue how I would tell toby, but it was all wishful thinking. Mother nature woke me up very painfully this morning. It is kinda depressing. I really do want to be pregnant, but I know for several reasons it would not be a good time. Main one being that Toby says he isn't ready and wants to wait, which i am abiding by those wishes by still being on the pill and not doing anything scandleous by deception. and the others including lack of insurance and I need a fulltime job for this and to pay off other small bills before we even think about kids. We won't ever be completely finacially stable, but at least we could get rid of a few smaller bills to be more helpful. but I just had this small hope that was building all day yest when I knew I hadn't started. that maybe it would be a fluke and just happen when I least expected it. But no, more waiting and silently hoping, dreaming, and wishing...
    But in other news I have been sending off resumes constantly. I have become almost obsessive of getting another job. The thing mentioned above fueling me more than the other reason of wanting to get out of the library. But I have been trying to stay optomistic and keep telling myself that if I keep applying to different places something has to turn up... it just has to statisticly. So I am waiting and constantly looking for opportunaties in my options.
   Oh and I finished the blue journal I had been using Yest. I am now using an older looking antique kinda one with old skeleton keys, pocket watches, stamps, and fountain pens on it. I found it at a used book shop a month ago and just had to have it. So it is my new journal and smaller so I hope it will last me till June when we go to St. Aug. so I can go straight from it to my new huge leather one I always get while I am down there.
    I am sorry if I am ranting, but I have had the whole baby thing on my mind alot every since Christmas (there really was a chance that I was then and I had all the symptoms and was devestated when I found out I wasn't....) I keep pushing it out of my mind, but it has been bothering me so much. I want to be pregnant, I want kids, I want a love child with my wonderful husband, who is scared to death he would be a bad father, but I KNOW he would be great! I get all teary eyed at commercials with babies or pregnant women in them. I gulp it down and stop it before it starts b/c Toby doesn't know how bad it is affecting me. If I dwell on it too long in my mind, I can just sit and cry for want of it. but I am not a weepy person and It is kinda crazy! how can I want something so bad, that I have never known? But I can just see a small toby running around, looking just like his daddy, and knowing that that baby is the best parts of both of us. I keep pushing it away b/c I know it could be a while before it is realized, but when it does break through with a little help from days like yest. it is rough b/c it is something I really want and feel ready for, but cant' have right now. so I have to wait and I am not a patient person so this is the hardest part.
   Well, I will shut up now and get back to work.


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April 3rd, 2009


04:15 pm - crappy work.

Well most probably won't have a clue what I am talking about, but things at work here in the library have been getting more and more stupid. I am so tired of it. i have put in two more resumes to places this week hoping something will turn up. I am so fed up, i am here at work now with nearly two hours still to go! I am so angry at my boss (who hasn't even been here in a MONTH! so she doesn't know everything that has been going on.) b/c she is bringing up stuff that was overwith and done while she was gone. She is bringing it up now and saying how I could have handled it better and shouldn't have done this or she would have done that. well, YOU weren't HERE! so you can't say what you would have done or not! it is done! OVERWITH! Drop it! there is no usefullness in bringing it up again when nothing can be done about it now. especially when she wasn't here to know exactly how things turned out or why they did the way they did. But I was mad enough when it was actually going on 3 weeks ago, I don't want to talk about it more! But oh well... I will just be glad when today is overwith! maybe I will get lucky and she will go home early.
    On to other things, the Jeff Dunham thing was HILAROUS! we both had a great time, laughed till we cried and our faces hurt. TOby about sprayed me with coke two or three times. It was a late night, but well worth it! I had just as much fun as toby did, which just b/c he was happy I was ok. it really was  a great night with just us. 
    Then we went to Cherokee NC for some Fishing on Weds... big waste of time! Rained pretty much the whole time, didn't catch a single fish, b/c they didn't stock b/c of the rain. So we went through some shops to make up for it on the indian reservation. we also seen some elk while we were out. which was neat.
   Another happy note, I am 20 pages from finishing my current journal and with today's ranting when I get home, it will be closer tonight! I can't wait to start a new one, I already have one lined up. I am looking forward to just being at home with toby. But I gotta go, break over!

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March 27th, 2009


11:19 am - Sorry no post lately...
Well, I am sorry I haven't posted in a while, but a ton of stuff has been going on, mainly with work. The other supervisor is quitting and I am gonna have to train a replacement for the third time. This is a real let down b/c I have been looking for another job for a while with no results and there for a week she had 3!! and couldn't decide between them. She is my friend and I am glad for her, she needs those jobs, but at the same time I am like why can't it be ME!?? I was really down all last week and really just flat out depressed and I am not a depressing person. so I was constantly fighting it which made it worse. Toby was great during all this. he takes my moods in strides which is good b/c I need someone steady like that when I am like this. Plus I was hormonal which didn't help any. It just all seemed too much last week. I am over it now, and I have bucked up and said I have done this before I will do it again. and i won't complain. i have two jobs, when there are people without. But I just really want to get a fulltime for so many already listed reasons, andit was just a shock to kinda have my friend rub her new jobS in my face. Plus both jobs were crazily busy last week. 
    But on to more fun things, We are going to a Jeff Dunham concert tonight. Toby is so thrilled and can't wait. I wish he hadn't paid so much for the tickets, but he heard he was gonna be in Chatt. and he just had to go. b/c he is very seldomly around here. So we are going tonight, and I am kinda looking forward to it b/c Toby is, and it is something to get out and do. I just wish it wouldn't be so rainy while we have to drive in crazy Chatt. traffic.
   I am currently reading a new series by Tamora Pierce Beka Cooper, Terrior. It is really good so far and in a journal format and since I keep a journal, I like those formats. It is really great and I am already halfway through it. I am also halfway through my current journal. or more than half really b/c I have been ranting alot in it lately about current things and work drama. I already have the next one lined up so no worries.
   I re-did my flower beds and weeded all of them. They are all nice a pretty and you can see my tulips really well. all the purple ones are blooming now! I love them! I can't wait till the rest do, which will be soon. I also planted some gladiolous and some "dancing star" lilies in my empty parts of the flower bed. they should come up in the summer. I have been outside as much as possible with the warm weather and we have walked in local parks two or three times a week lately. which is great b/c that is how I lose the few pounds I gain in the winter. So I have a little sun on my skin too now. very little b/c I usually just burn. but I am not bleach white anymore. so hopefully I won't blind too many people. I like to be outside and get a light tan naturally b/c I don't lay in tanning beds b/c my family has a history of cancer. But if it doesn't stop raining soon I will lose all the little color I have b/c I have been stuck in the house or at work.
   I have been writing some too. I wrote more on my Through the Clockface story. I also have the next segment of the Wizard's Castle story to work on, but I am waiting on an answer from the other person writing it with me. i had a question about the part she wrote. So I am trying to wait on an answer. I hope to hear from her soon, but her internet is kinda choppy where she is now.
   Well, Iam just rambling, trying to update on things that have been going on, Oh and I ate bad shrimp the other night and I am now queasy everytime I eat... and it has been going on for days now... not too terribly bad just enough to get me to stop eating for a bit. but then it goes away. I wish it would hurry up and get out of my system. Ummm... not much else so I believe I will quit for now... I am at work and should get back to it....

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March 11th, 2009


08:01 pm - Silly Spring Tease!!

Well, Spring has been teasing us... it was 80 degrees for two days here and the weekend was Glorious!! I actually wore shorts on Monday and I have been out on the greenway and walked three times already. I love being outside wihen it is warm enough to do so. I have also weeded the flowerbed so you can see my tulips which are now 6 inches above the ground now... I can't wait for them to bloom! They are so colorful! and they mean that spring is here!! I even laid out in the sun for a little bit the other day listening to HP on CD-book, I got a little color, but I have too much Irish in me to tan... I burn and blister then peel... then I am pale again, but I did get a little pink on me so I am not bleach white anymore!! lol for the moment anyway. But sadly it is going to turn off cold again this weekend and we should have a few more cold spells before spring finally does get here. .... my thoughts are: It should not be cold, unless it is snowing! if you are not gonna snow, then let Spring get here already!
     I have been busy with friends b/c it being warm makes me want to get out and do things. but I actually got a little house work done today, but not much luckily I am off tom morning so I can finish up stuff. Nothing much has happened lately to talk about other than me messing up mine and Toby's dinner and I had to go get a pizza at the last min... lol I read the box wrong. I don't often do that but when I do it is royally messed up! We couldn't save it... Oh well.
   Oh and we got tickets to a comedian who is coming to Chattanooga the last weekend in March. It is Jeff Dunham, the ventrilquist. He is Hilarous!! Toby heard he was gonna be down there and he couldn't resist.. .I thought the tickets were kinda expensive but he wanted to go so badly. and he would kick his self if he didn't go the one time he is in Chattanooga, when all his buddies from work seem to be going. Plus it should be fun and I like the guy ok... 
    Ummmm I am bored and at my parents... and I didn't bring anything to do, but I don't think that will matter much in a minute b/c my mom will be home from church soon and she will FIND something for me to do... well since I shouldn't ramble.. I will go now...

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March 4th, 2009


10:08 am - Boring work...

I have stuff to be doing, but I really don't want to yet... I have been here everyday this week so far and the other girl comes back tom, THANK GOD!! I am so tired of being here by myself! I get griped at for things I don't even know how to do! then they complain b/c I don't, I am like YOU never trained me!! how am I supposed to know!! so I have been winging it and think I am doing pretty good, but pretty good is not enough for my OCD attorney. I have been working at the library still in the evenings too so all evening everyday is wearing me thin and my house is a wreck! I have been doing laundry and taking the catbox out but that 's about it, toby has been doing dishes, but I need to vacuum, sweep, pick stuff that creeps into the LR if you aren't watching up... plus all the cat toys laying around, which I usually pick up once a week and put back in their toybox... hasn't happened in over a week, we are overrun with fuzzies!! and mice!! lol but I am mainly just tired, I am not used to working this much.. I could get used to it if it were a fulltime job and it was perminant, but doing it every once in a while and then going back to nearly no hours is stressfull b/c I have to constantly check my schedule b/c it is constantly changing... I so want a normal job! so I know when I am working and can plan stuff accordingly... argh! not to mention insurance so me and toby could really consider kids... though secretly I think he is glad that problem exists at the moment. but I could work on him if it wasn't a problem. but it is, so it's holding us back somewhat.
   if this suddenly just gets posted it is b/c the attorney has come in and I haven't got to finish it and I just posted it. Today feels like a Friday.. and I don' tknow why.. I think it may be b/c I have worked everyday for like a week. it should be a friday!! LOL Well, nothing much is going on in my life other than work and such, but I have seemed to found a penpal that I am looking forward to starting letters with. since I have had so much time on here the past week, I have added a couple of new communities and one was a penpals one where people put profiles on there to see if someone else is interested in being their written penpal, I LOVE letters so I thought this was a great community. So I applied and put a profile on it, and I already have someone that I have a LOT in common with and plan to start writing soon. it should be really fun.
   Well, Iam practicly out of things to talk about and so I really should just go, incase he comes in, so I will go and just keep an eye on here occasionally and look forward to lunch, then 5 when I can go home!! later!

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March 3rd, 2009


10:20 am - Writer's Block: More Island Time

You're packing your bag for that other desert island—the one with no electricity—what 5 books do you take with you?

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Alice in Wonderland, Lewis Carroll
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, JK Rowling
Sorcery and Cecelia, Patricia Wrede
Eragon, Christopher Paolini
Spindle's End, Robin McKinley

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February 27th, 2009


09:10 am - Back to normal life I guess...

I say back to normal life, but sometimes I don't think my life is normal b/c there is do definate definition of normal, but oh well, back to my normal, of working all the time, trying to keep my house clean, my hubby and cats happy, and trying to write as often as possible, and trying to let anything and everyone inspire me. or I am trying anyway...
     I am working all day at the law office today b/c the other girl who works here is getting married tom. and took yest and today and half of next week off for her wedding and honeymoon. I was only here half a day yest and it wasn't too bad, though of course I got tons of calls of things I have no clue about b/c I only work parttime here and they won't train me the rest of the way!! ARGH! so when I am filling in all day I just have to wing it. and I get to do it more next week... yey. But one good thing, is there is only so much I can do here, so I have been pacing myself so I have stuff to do next week. and soo I bring things to do for myself, like my journal or my comp book where I am currently working on new little stories. One of my friends that lives in Knoxville, I sent her a list of some of the prompts I have been using and we got this idea that both of us do one of the same prompts and once we are semi-done with them then we would compare them and see where we differed in our thoughts on the prompts, just to be interesting. So we are both doing the one "Nothing is as tempting as a locked door..." and my little story is like 6 pages long already. I am still working on the Clockface one, but I just haven't had much time to do much on either this week b/c of mom's surgery and the extra work. But at least I am still writing, though I feel bad b/c I should be working on one of my Huge stories that are practicly books so I feel like they are going somewhere, but I just haven't been drawn to them lately and I think if I write on them while disinterested then whatever I write won't be as good as it would normally be. OH and I did get to write more on one of my old stories!! b/c this same said friend and I started a medeval story in letter format like 2 years ago when she lived here. we wrote it back and forth in a comp book for like 6 months, then she got married and her life got a little too crazy and it was put aside, well she found it and wrote on it again!! YAY and mailed the letter to me, I was so excited that I sat and wrote the whole next entry in one sitting and even wrote it twice so I would have a copy in my book after I mailed it to her. My hand hurt so bad that day, but it was well worth it. She should be getting it today, i hope the blasted rain doesn't get it! it's pouring over TN today. So I may sit and write some today in my spare time, if the silly phone will stop ringing!! 
     But my mom is still ok and back to herself, she should get her results today, but I am not worried about them b/c the doctor was so confident that it was nothing on weds. She was so ornery when they told her she couldn't go back to work till monday! LOL I was like MOM that place can run a few days without you! You just had surgery! but she still has been cleaning the house from top to bottom b/c she is one of those people who cant stand to sit still, which I guess is where I get it. lol, b/c I always have to be working on something! But yeah she is completely normal, she's just a little bruised and sore, but that will be gone in a week. I am so happy it was nothing worse.
    Well, today is payday, but I have to get Toby to go get my check b/c I am stuck here all day and I can't go all the way across town to get my check and get it cashed and get lunch all in the same hour! lol so he is gonna pick it up and bring it by here so I can just go to a bank on this side of town. b/c he is usually out running around for his job anyway. Well, if I write much today I may post some, but as for now I need to go do one of my little things, so they can't say I don't do anything here! I will talk to you more later maybe, depends on how bored I get...lol

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February 25th, 2009


11:23 am - Mom's ok
I just wanted to update again to let everyone know that mom is ok. and out of surgery, she got out around 9 and they let her go home so I am at work and plan to go down there after work to see how she is doing b/c all she plans to do today is sleep anyway. But it was just a small surgery and they said everything went as planned and they removed the knot and plan to send it off. They said it still looked like a cyst, and if she didn't have a history with cancer then they would say it was nothing, but they are sending it off just in case. So I am so glad she is ok and nothing worse happened. b/c you never know what could happen in a moment. But this is just an update so I have to go, But I will talk to you guys later!.... thanks for those who were concerned.

PS my LJ is messed up!! it's not showing any pics or anything and the pages are all messed up, plain and colorless... I don't know if it is the site or this computer... please tell me something is not wrong with my account after all this time... is anyone else's doing this today?? or is it just mine? Thanks
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February 24th, 2009


08:11 am - Mom and Surgery...

I will try to get all this in... I am kinda rushed, but my mom is going into surgery tom. morning at 6 am, Yes 6 AM! I dread being at the hospital at 5;30 tom. but she is having that cyst removed. The one that they found in Nov, or Dec and thought was breast cancer, well they have been keeping an eye on it. Well it grew back to like 3x it's normal size and plus several other little spots have appeared around it. So after going to the dr. on Friday last week, they have decided to do surgery, and remove the larger knot. Then send it off for testing. If it comes back and is nothing then it's fine, but if it is cancerous then they are gonna remove the rest of the little knots. Well, they are still saying it's a cyst and removing it more for convinance than anything, but I just hope it turns out to be nothing. I got so worked up over it in Nov. and I don't want to do that again, especially if it's nothing. But the surgery should only last 30 mins or so and they said it will be such a small cut it won't even need stitches and it is an outpatient thing, so she will get to go home right afterwards. She could even go back to work the next day if she wanted. But I am going anyway as support plus I would DIE if anything happened and I wasn't there! b/c she is still being put under and everything. SO Just wish my family luck and pray for my mom if you do. Thanks again, just wanted to update everyone, since it may be a little bit before I can again. Talk to everyone soon!! 
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February 19th, 2009


08:16 pm - Biltmore Trip!

I love going to the Biltmore Estate, (Asheville, NC)! and Toby was the greatest when he got us tickets to go for me for Valentines Day! It was a surprise up until the Sat before we went and I was so happy when I found out! I couldn't wait to go and this would be the 3rd time I had been. 
     We left early Monday morning and got there about ten or so. I immediately started taking tons of pics. I love the old gothic look of the outside of the house and love the Victorian look of the rooms inside. I took as many pics as the cold would let me before we finally went in. We got to looking at the other tours they were offering just to see what was new. Toby noticed a new RoofTop Tour that they had that we had not been on. It sounded really fun and it had areas that I had never been listed. So we paid the extra money and went on it first. Luckily it was meeting right after we paid so we were set to go almost immediately.
     They told us up front that you will be going up like 250 stairs in this and you will be outside on the Roof at times and outside for up to 45 mins of the tour. which was fine by us b/c we loved the idea of being on top of the house. We started by going up a bunch of stair cases and through some old rooms that weren't in use at the moment. One was just for storage and had all these old mirrors in it and it was kinda creepy in a way with only all these 100yr old mirrors staring at you. but Toby finally got to go up the tiny staircase I had told him about, it was a servent's stair so it was smaller and he had to turn sideways to walk up it, his shoulders were too broad. We had to go out these little doors that still used the old skeleton keys to get out on the dome part of the roof and it was amazing! The views were gorgous and you could see parts of the house that weren't normally visable. The wind was very cold and would cut you in two, but we still stayed out as long as we could to take pics. Then when we were leaving that area this couple in our group got engaged! It was so sweet! He proposed to her on TOP of the Biltmore house! We went on to the next balcony which was the one of the very front of the house at the top of the main tower on the house. It was neat b/c you could actually touch the gargoyles here. plus the views were even more amazing from that side of the house. We then went through more small doors and other off limit rooms to get to the Huge Western balcony. This one had the greatest views and had the most little faces and creatures carved on the walls and windows... I got tons of pics just on this balcony. Plus the trees even in the winter had a whole new character, I really liked the looks of them even in the cold. The Western balcony ended our RoofTop Tour and we started back into the normal house to dethaw and to start our normal tour.
     We walked through the rooms of the house that were open to the basic tour and they had like 10 more rooms redone since I had been there last and plan to open 4 more come this April. My favorite room will always be the Library in that house, the huge fireplace, floor to ceiling bookcases, a balcony around the whole room, a beautiful spiral staircase leading to it, all the red wood and iron rails, even the ceiling is beautifully painted! I just stood and stared for the longest time. They won't let you take pics inside the house, so for once in my life I truely wished I could sketch... that way I would have some kind of likenesses of the beauty I saw. It wasn't just there, there were faces carved everywhere, beautiful antique furniture, paintings, books, they had these drawings of castles from all over the world everywhere that wasn't there before, that I loved! I just couldn't seem to take it all in. I am doing a whole little journal book to just that trip (thanks Hill!), trying to fill it up with as much detail as I can of the place, it will also have a few pics too, but it is mostly writings of what I thought of the place. We went through all the rooms and had a great time. It wasn't too packed and we could take our time when we wanted to and I got to see things I hadn't noticed before. I was trying to notice everything I could. But there is so much there, that there is no way possible to get it all!
    After our tour there we went out on to the grounds to take pics before we went off elsewhere. we got pics in the beautiful greenhouses. I have to admit the gardens are not the beauty that they usually are in the winter b/c none of the flowers are blooming. but the greenhouses were just as pretty and colorful as ever and I loved them.
    After our walk there we went to the little gift shop where Toby bought me pair of earrings to match this ring I have, then we went on to the Winery to explore there. We went behind the scenes at the winery to see how the wine was made and went through the Cellars where they keep and age thier wine. It was very interesting and the place where they kept all of it was the closest thing that they had to a dungeon there! lol it was all these doors lining a long dark stone tunnell! very medeval and neat. It was definately interesting.
     We then went on to the old barn and looked around at the old equipment and everything that used to be used on a farm in the days when the house was run. It was neat but we rushed through it b/c it was getting later in the day by this time and we were getting tired. We went on to the real barn where they had the animals and they have a little petting area there. I petted the sheep and the calf and some of the chickens, Oh and a rabbit too. but the one thing I wanted to pet was the big clydesdale horses, but none would come to the fence... so oh well. we left after that for home.
     We were so tired and I walked so much my legs cramped up on the way home. We ate at Logans on the way and when we got home we were so tired we couldn't sleep at first! LOL But it was a great great trip! there were times my face and hands were numb from the cold, but it was worth it. It was a beautiful day and I got some beautiful pics! which I have posted on Myspace and Facebook if you want to look at them. This was a really long entry so I am gonna go now!! Later!

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February 18th, 2009


11:59 am - I am back...

I am back, but I won't have enough time to post a long entry on the trip to the Biltmore... I plan to type a real long on later and upload it on here. I have been working all day everyday since I have been back and I am trying to write it all down for myself too! lol I am doing a whole little journal with pics and stuff for it. But anyway. I was absolutely great! I done tons of new things like the Roof top Tour which you get to go to the top of the house and look off the huge balconies and the stone walkways! You can actually touch the gargoyles! I loved it!! we done a wine tasting and though I don't like wine it was ok and at least I can say I did it. I went to the farm and behind the scenes at the winery and I uploaded pics on Myspace today of it. But They have added a few new rooms and are redoing 4 more to open in April of this year. I had a great time and promise a longer entry on it later!!
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February 12th, 2009


07:29 pm - Ministory part...
Ok here is the first little part of a ministory that got started b/c of a story prompt. This is just the part I wrote all at once at first, but it really took off after that! it's like 12 pages now and I was writing more on it today, so I have decided to start typing it into the computer so that I can edit some parts/add to. So since I am doing this on a computer some now, I may post parts of it. so here is the first little part... it's not much, but at the moment I didn't mean for it to be. But now it is a full fledged in the process story with very ALice in Wonderlandish parts. But if I post the rest of it and you're like 'this sounds familar'... it's b/c I am modeling parts after Alice in Wonderland, but in my own little world... it'll never be published or anything and it's just for fun. So let me know what you think about the little snippet here.... talk to everyone later!! I am still writing!!

Through the Clock Face… 2/2009

 

            And the clock winked… as she was staring at it distractedly, her thoughts a million miles away. It took a second for her to come to her senses and look at the old clock more closely. It was an old grandfather clock that probably was placed here when the library was first built. She was buried in the back of an old school library, in a comfy chair with her assigned book to read laying forgotten in her lap. She had took refuge in the old library because the snow was falling hard and fast, and she didn’t want to walk home to her apartment in this mess. Especially, when she would just be doing the same thing there, being bored.

          She started sinking back into her thoughts of how she wasn’t going where she wanted to be going in life. How things were all supposed to be exciting and new, but she had just seemed to have lost her creativity. Everything was gray and dull no matter how interesting it should have been to her.

          The clock winked again, or seemed to, but this time she wasn’t so far gone as to ignore it. She jumped up and crossed over to the small secluded corner where the clock stood tall in a corner against a shelf on one side and a frosted over window on the other. The clock was taller than her five foot stature so she had to stand on tiptoes to see into the cloudy face. The window must have had a draft and it was frosting the face over. It must have been light reflecting oddly off of it that she seen. So she took the end of her sleeve and wiped the front of the old glass face off. So she could actually see if it worked.

          As she cleaned the old clock’s face, she heard a faint click and the old door on the front that holds the pendulum was cracked open. ‘My jacket must have gotten caught,’ she thought. She was then interested enough to pull it slightly farther open and to look inside.

          It was extremely dark inside and had an old musty smell like an old book. Why it seemed so dark, she didn’t know. It was bright enough in this part of the library. She tentively put her hand into the darkness. It went in all the way to her elbow without feeling a back. ‘That’s strange,’ she thought, but her mind immediately went to old secret passages and exploring. She smiled for the first time in a while. ‘I should leave a note… Just in case.’ So she got out her notebook and left this message laying in the chair with her dull old book forgotten.

          “Gone into the clock, in search of lost creativity. Will return when can. Please leave bag here. Thanks”
She drew an arrow to the old clock and turned back to the clock, smiling. She winked back at the old clock, opened the small door, and crawled in…


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February 11th, 2009


11:21 am - Stupid Dr. App...!!!
Well, my dr. app. got moved up to today which is good in a way b/c I can get it overwith and not get myself up in a fit over it. I dread it every year... it's the same thing  that every woman dreads... but I have to have it all done every year to have my bc pills redone. and I am on my last pack so I have to go.... though I really really don't want to! I LOATH going to the dr. and much less to one who has to go poking around everywhere! ARGH! I could understand if I wasn't married or if I had been having problems or something, having the silly crap done every year, but NOTHING has changed!! and I haven't had even one problem associated with that, so WHY do I have to go through this crap every year!!?? but Oh well, it will be overwith and done for another year this afternoon and I won't have to worry about dealing with it next week like it was originally scheduled. they jumped it on me, so I don't have time to worry... which like I say I should be happy of, but I just hate this app. in particular so much! but I will stop complaining now... 
    I am still writing, I have wrote more on that "and the Clock winked..." ministory, I am really liking it. I have decided to call it Through the ClockFace, for the moment anyway. but I really like the way it is going and has an Alice theme. OH and speaking of Alice the necklace I loved and ordered last week came in on Monday! I LOVE it. I have been wearing it every day. But other than me getting into a super cleaning mood and cleaning my whole house, nothing has been going on. I have been writing, working, cleaning, and playing that old Mario game when I am not so mad at it. lol But mainly I wanted to gripe about the dr. app. and since I have already done that, I should go, I do have stuff I need to be doing and plus it distracts me... so I won't think too much about it. ick. Oh well, later...  

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February 8th, 2009


03:16 pm - Story starter prompts...

Hey I found a bunch of these online and they really have gotten my creativity going! I  like writing the little ministories that come from these ideas so I thought I would share some!
Start a mini story with the first lines of...
~And the clock winked... (I done this one and it turned out very Alice in wonderlandish, I liked it though)
~Nothing is as tempting as a locked door... (I plan to do this one next! It was interesting!)
~She looked in the mirror in horror and saw...
~It was my best friend's deepest secret, and it would be a hard one to keep...
~The Castle stood at the top of a hill, close enough to see that in a high window stood...
~Sometimes I think my friend has special powers, everytime he is around...
~I don't believe in magic pencils, but... ( I plan to do this one soon, I just liked it.)
~"Open at your own risk" was written on the label...
~Something brushed against me and my surprise turned to horror when I saw...

Ok these are just a few that I wrote down b/c they sounded interesting. They have really helped me be creative when I really don't feel like it in the winter... everything is so cold and dull, unless it's snowing then it's a wonderland! LOL but we don't get much snow here... Anyway, hope someone gets something out of this!!

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February 6th, 2009


09:34 am - Normal day I guess...
Well, this will be a normal day I guess. Nothing much has happened  since I wrote in here last. I finished my segment of the Wizard's Castle thing, and I continued my story with Geric in it for a few more pages before I got interrupted by my best friend who was supposed to be coming over in like 20 mins, but had conventantly locked her keys in her car in the next city...lol I seriously thought I was gonna have to go get her, and get lost in the process b/c I didn't know where she was...lol But it worked out, she called her campus security and they got her car unlocked. so she was very late and I only got to spend like 45 mins with her before TOby got home from work adn we had to rush off to dinner with my dad and a few of his friends like we usually do on Weds nights. (it's usually at a Hooters too...lol but believe it or not the food is really great! I like going there!) That was fun, but nothing too spectacular. 
    But what has really been filling my free time since my friend dropped it off Weds, is the old Mario 64 game... I have never played it and she let me borrow it so I played late weds. night and all day Thur till work and I plan to play it more tonight when I finally get off work... I go straight from this job to the other one on Fridays... but I get off at 6 so I am looking forward to that. So that is what I plan to do tonight... nothing big just to lay around and play video games and possibly share it with toby...he he 
     I am just bored silly here, b/c I have absolutely NOTHING to do! I have just been answering phones, and the other girl has a dr. app. this morning and will be in late so I have no one to talk to... BORED. I guess I could be writing b/c I did bring my comp book in... hmmm. OR I need to look up some more creative prompts... I may do that too... I am just bored and didn't want to get out of my warm bed to drag myself though the cold to come to work today... especially since I won't be home again till tonight... Well, I should just go find some thing to do instead of bore-ing you guys...  

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